funk, spunk, and inspiration

I haven't felt like blogging in ages, and of course, at the moment, I'm on a time restraint. This time of year is hard for me. For some reason it is in February and March that I have most of my "existential crisis" days. I know most people deal with that stuff at their birthday, when they're starting a new year, identifying themselves as a new age, feeling the force of change and risking stagnation, but for me, the end of winter is when things seem bleakest.

Last year's existential crisis ended in me transferring to two new locations for work because I was simply that unhappy with my lot. This year I knew somewhere in the back of my mind that things weren't that bad, and that if I could just grit my teeth and muscle through it everything would end up coming together. So I did, and it has. The piece I'm still struggling with is that nothing has actually changed beyond my own perception. 

Of course, I'm not out of the woods. I'm pretty good at throwing myself for a loop on the regular. But I've been having a pretty damn good week and I'm feeling more invigorated and inspired than I have in a while. I've got one little art project on the horizon that I'm really excited about. I've finally got the motivation to get the things I need for my sewing project that's been sitting in the corner for months. I've got some ideas for other sewing projects that I'm really excited about. Will I have the time and energy to actually do all this? A girl can dream. :)

<3 pennilane