Before 2011 I had been involved in a [fairly recent] string of wasted kisses, awful roommates, a high stress job, and a little too much recklessness. Before coming to Connecticut I had been involved in a whole lot of too much recklessness, and had a stressful, uncomfortable home life. Before that, well, I was young.
In 2011 I found comfort in a healthy, happy relationship. I took the initiative and improved my work situation. I moved out of a terrible neighborhood and into a quaint little town. I officially became a resident of Connecticut. I don't know that I could thank one single thing for helping me "heal" this year. I would have to give a nod to time, understanding, self-awareness, strength, and serenity.
But then I look back at the last month, which has been particularly stressful, and realize that I need so much more serenity in my life. Just these last few days of taking the time to thumb through the changes I've made, and that have made me, in the last year have made me very aware of how tense I was the last several weeks. I need to let go of more. Breathe more. If I could hope for any sort of healing for 2012 it would be in the form of more serenity.
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