Well, until this month, I've avoided writing like the plague, despite the fact that the need to write has been eating away at my soul for the last several months. I even "dedicated" myself to completing NANOWRIMO and then conveniently came up with multiple excuses to not do it. One of them is that I'm so "out of practice" that I felt like jumping in head first would have just ended in a smashed skull. That's why I'm taking advantage of Reverb 11 this month; its such a simple way to get writing happening, and who doesn't love to talk about themselves on the interwebz? :D
I also magically avoided changing my work situation. Don't get me wrong, I still love my job. But man, I put up with too much bullshit sometimes. This week, in particular, has already been way too much fun, and its only Wednesday. I did make my work life BETTER by transferring out of the shit-hole kiosk and away from the emotionally abusive manager, but yeah... one of these days I might eventually be brave enough to get a grown-up job. Of course then I'll just have to put up with a whole different kind of bullshit, so its all relative.
I also avoided my dad this year. I returned his call once, but I was a little tipsy and left a message that probably made him feel like an asshole, so I haven't heard from him since. Yes, that means he didn't call me for my birthday or thanksgiving. It wasn't the first time, trust me. I'm working on "letting go" of my resentment towards him, but I feel like letting him back in would just create new reasons to resent him, so its easier to continue the silence. He probably feels the same way, so I guess we're even.
As far as eventually doing these things, well, I'm already getting back into writing [GO ME!], I did improve work, although a change probably wouldn't hurt eventually, but I have no real plans for it in the near future, and the ball is in dad's court as far as I'm concerned.
<3 pennilane
No comments:
Post a Comment