Day 30 Reverb 11

What’s the thing you most want to achieve next year? How do you imagine you’ll feel when you get it? Free? Happy? Complete? Blissful? Write that feeling down. Then, brainstorm 10 things you can do, or 10 new thoughts you can think, in order to experience that feeling today.

At this very moment, I would really like to write something of substance next year. A collection of thoughts that came from my head and turned into words on paper [or a screen, as it may be]. I haven't decided what form this writing will take, but that's pretty much what I've been leading up to with this little "blogsperiment" of mine. I need to get into the habit of writing again. Of feeling comfortable with my words being available for others to read, even if no one's reading them. 

I have a feeling that my final emotions when I do achieve this goal will be rather mixed. "What do I do next?" "Why do I think its terrible?" "Would anyone else read this crap?" "Hooray, I got that off my chest." 

I don't know how it will feel. I've never really attempted to write something "creative" that wasn't going to be graded. I just know its something that I want to do, and have wanted to do for a long time, I just lost my voice for a while. So that's my goal. Maybe I'll attempt NANOWRIMO for real next year. Maybe I'll pick up poetry again. Maybe I'll just throw a bunch of crap into some "creative non-fiction" essays or something. 

At least I found my voice. And I think that that realization in and of itself is enough to make me feel all the feelings I might feel when I achieve my goal.

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